Here we are, five years later!!  lol  Such a disciplined writer!  But, I want to keep track of what's going on here where apparently it will last forever. 
I have now been daily using medical marijuana for three months.  I want to report on how different I feel. 
I have completely lost the dreaded/anxious feeling.  I am also weaning myself off anti-depressives and high blood pressure medication.  I do not want to take these dangerous chemicals anymore.  Filled my life with dangerous chemicals and now in my waning years, I want to be clean.  The pot is amazing.  The difference in the quality and quantity of the weed is night and day between a dispensary and a 'guy on the street.' I figure I take 2 hits 4 times a day.  That's enough and over the long term, it has proven itself to heal in a way I wouldn't have believed possible.  Because of not using pot just to get high, and by limiting my 'hits,' I am feeling better, more confident, more peaceful and able to cope with anything that comes along. I feel alert, energetic and good.  I'm trying to eat cleanly but, of course, there are some things I just love, like that damn good bagel in the morning dripping with olive oil and coffee.  My secret pleasure.  I've definitely cut down on drinking and still am amazed when I manage to get a big buzz on and feel like poop because...why?  Why even bother?

I have a whole new attitude about smoking pot.  I am amazed that controlled usage has led to feeling so much better like I've been reading.  If you told me I would feel like this now, I wouldn't have believed it.  I guess the anti depressives are squirreling around the wrong part of my brain.  I have no problem with over drinking while taking them but with steady weed, a beer is sometimes enough.
I love the taste of the pot and the mild buzz that comes with the relief of any pain I might be dealing with.