End of baby week...end of summer vacation...

 Coming to an end of a week long stay with my Grands.  I already am starting to cry even though Summer is NOT yet over and we still have a week left to spend together.  

I love these kids so much...Even the challenges are welcome as they are ways for me to learn how to respond and handle adversity in a controlled manner.  I don't always do so well.  I lose patience and become frustrated but always 'check myself' quickly and apologize for my craziness...Babies appreciate that and me.  And I them, for that and for so much more.  The entertainment they provide is amazing.  They are so precious and so spontaneous and so much fun!!  I'm so thankful and grateful that I've had this time to spend with them.  I am so grateful and so thankful that I can freely spend this time with them without any worries and we make everything so much fun regardless!!!  

Bowling has been a blast and we will continue on with Gramma joining the fun shortly now that I'm under the care of so many professionals working to relieve my nerve pain so I can 'carry on' with some normalcy.  As long as I'm in good enough condition to make my time and effort work with the kids I'm all set...

So, here...Friday.  July 30th.  Our last weekend of July and the beginning of a new month.  I don't know what the future will bring but I will meet it with expectation and excitement!!  As long as that future includes these kids and my family, I AM ALL SET.  

I hope God knows my heart in all of this since He has put all of this in there Himself...I love you Father and I thank you for this blessing...

Here we are...almost a year later.

Here we are.  Almost a year later and what a friggin trip it's been.  The country has descended into a chaotic liberal fascist garbage state that feels like we're holding on by a string.  Who knows what the fake news is feeding you?  BOTH SIDES. Liars, thieves, and other assorted dead souls.  If you don't have God these days?  You. Have. Nothing.  Good luck.  Get a clue.  Get God.  Live and be free...

I have come to the end of a month with my babies and I cannot...cannot...thank God enough for this experience.  I love these kids with all my not-understanding-the-depth-of-this-love heart.  My patience level is mesmerizing.  Our communication is simply amazing...I talk more about God with these guys who UNDERSTAND where our Lord and Savior is coming from, a lot more than most adults I know...wow.  And I get to clue them in on the devils strategies in a simple understandable child like way. I am so grateful to God for all of this and the Love and Peace that radiates from my heart.  Thank you Lord.  

I think about the suffering of our Lord and I beg forgiveness for my thoughts and whining arm things.  That, in turn, enables me to be 100% in His care 24/7 and to also pass that along in quiet peaceful ways to others around me.