You know, it's just so damn good sometimes, that I don't write everyday. Perhaps I get to really see how assinine some of my ideas are.
Here it is, July already. Charlie? I'm feelin' like I'm just done with that. He just pisses me off too much. Just talking with him on the phone pisses me off. I don't know why past he is not the one for me. period. Now it's time, truly time, for me to let go and trust God. That's the only way. With all of this stuff in my life that continues to feel like a bad movie. Time to turn that bad movie into something oscar worthy!! first thing to do is allow GOD to direct this life. Either I"m gonna believe or I'm not gonna believe. Moses sat in the desert for 40 years...You go through the valleys for a reason. The mountain top will come when I am ready in God's eyes for that mountain top to be climbed.
So, work is good. I love my job and I love it that God kept me there until I realized that I love that job and the guys I work with. He puts me where He puts me and there's no way else that I'm gonna get put anywhere unless I'm supposed to be there. My boys are used to me and we have a good repoire. I'm thankful for this job because it supplies just what I need in so many ways. A couple of bucks for the summer without all the work. a destination for the weekend without working Sunday. Keeps me hoppin' and my brain working.
Speaking of which, I've been feeling pretty good lately! Oh sure, I have aches and pains but, mentally speaking, my mind feels clear and I feel good overall. I thank God for this, as I watch the commercials endlessly on TV and praise Him that I don't have that or this or whatever everyone else seems to have.
I hate what this world is becoming. I hate DOMA being shot down by the Supreme court. I hate the way the gays are gaining traction. BUT, I am not going to judge them. That's God's job. When this baby sitting gig is over, maybe I'll go far away to someplace wild and free and away from this crumbling civilization.
I realize how the devil has worked to keep me in irons for so long. So very long. Like my whole freakin' life. It's gotta stop. It's gotta end now. Satan, get behind me, in the name of JESUS. It is finished.
